When did my heart lose its way

Getting lost isn’t an instantaneous thing. It takes time and dedication to walk away from the light. And what we thought was just a quick sojourn becomes a journey of gradual disconnection. Until eventually we are lost and wonder just how we got to this lonely dark corner, surrounded by others who are also lost. But the thing is, for the others. Light has never touched their souls so they have no conception of the darkness they are surrounded by. But I do and weep, as memory sings a sweet song about loss and how once my soul soared on the wings of angels and my heart was unburdened. So even in this darkness where I thought I could hide. I am different and become the slightest glimmer of light that draws those around me. And as they come I welcome them into my halo and offer what comfort I can, trying to remember when love filled my heart.

For me. this took 15 years, until fate and circumstance woke me from my hearts slumber and I heard a voice calling me home. I stumbled and could not believe I could once more go to my fathers house. But when I arrived covered in the excrement of darkness I was held in strong arms, bathed, clothed and welcomed home.

I still cannot understand the grace that never fails nor the love that will simply not let me go. But I know in whom I believe xxx

Love Pastor Rob